Running here to write an overdue post hoping that this feeling-like-dying emotions will fade away. Been feeling unwell and coughing out thick green phlegm for one week already blegh apologies for the delay. Assalamualaikum and hello again, thank you for visiting this blog on the eleventh month of this year! Time flies when you least want it to and crawls when you desperately need it to pass by soon I swear.
I am finally done with my first semester (although come to think of it it was quite short, just less than 4 months compared to others) and currently on my two month semester break (which is super duper long too for some reason it's like I'm back in school). Somehow survived finals with a lot of messy crying breakdowns along the way but hey typical college student life, right? I was slacking off quite near the end and it took a lot of effort to get back in my SPM mode zzzzzzzzz that barely pass grade in Chemistry was like a wake up call for me to buck up fast and it might be a blessing in disguise that motivated me to finish off all 12? 11? of the past year papers (which is really nothing special everyone else does the same ahaha). Same goes to Maths I guess and Bio was just like gg la.Thank god for the internal assessment marks that will hopefully be helpful for the overall marks for this semester.
Went to a very informative suicide prevention workshop done by Befrienders KL a few weeks before with Amira. Too fatigued to write another description of it but here's a copy-pasted caption from my Instagram post soz:
I am finally done with my first semester (although come to think of it it was quite short, just less than 4 months compared to others) and currently on my two month semester break (which is super duper long too for some reason it's like I'm back in school). Somehow survived finals with a lot of messy crying breakdowns along the way but hey typical college student life, right? I was slacking off quite near the end and it took a lot of effort to get back in my SPM mode zzzzzzzzz that barely pass grade in Chemistry was like a wake up call for me to buck up fast and it might be a blessing in disguise that motivated me to finish off all 12? 11? of the past year papers (which is really nothing special everyone else does the same ahaha). Same goes to Maths I guess and Bio was just like gg la.Thank god for the internal assessment marks that will hopefully be helpful for the overall marks for this semester.
Went to a very informative suicide prevention workshop done by Befrienders KL a few weeks before with Amira. Too fatigued to write another description of it but here's a copy-pasted caption from my Instagram post soz:
"When you are in distress, what makes you choose the person you confide your problems to, what are the qualities of them that you should emulate when reaching out to a suicidal person?" When someone starts sharing their painful thoughts and stories, DO NOT INTERRUPT, DO NOT BELITTLE THEIR PROBLEMS, and DO NOT SHIFT THE FOCUS AND ATTENTION TO OURSELVES INSTEAD. The latter happens often without us realizing it, with the common, "Oh your problem is NOTHING, last year was worse for ME...." and what was supposed to be a moment for a suicidal person to finally speak about their problems ends with the supposed-to-be-listener telling more about themselves instead. And when a suicidal person confides in you, most of the time they are not asking for your advice or judgement. Just be there and listen. Ask them to tell more about their feelings and pain. Don't tell them to "chill". Give them time to let out their pent up emotions, let them scream or cry. Be calm and don't show fear or uncomfort at their outburst. They may have been holding in for long and have reached their breaking point. Anyway, learnt a lot during that workshop and anyone out there feeling depressed, suicidal, or just need someone to talk to, don't be ashamed to get help! If you have problems reaching out to the people you know, you can always call or email Befrienders KL at 03-79568145 as they're always there to listen with while you remain anonymous. You are never truly alone and know that help is always available.
Speaking of suicide, went to Galeri Universiti Malaya the other day too with Amira for an art exhibition done by patients recovering from mental illnesses. The art was beautiful of course and the message there was clear: You can recover. There is no shame in seeking help when you need to, mental illnesses are as heavy as bodily illnesses. Later on, we went to visit our friends studying in UM, and I felt so.. spoilt? Privileged? Fed with a silver spoon? while comparing myself being in a private university to those studying in public universities. I really feel like those in public universities work harder and have a more stressful, tougher lifestyle with a broader syllabus than us after seeing their final test papers. I felt like slapping myself for not using the advantages and kemudahan I have properly, being lazy instead and not appreciating what I have.
Moving on to a less serious topic, hey I finally am done with writing a fanfiction that I started in 2013 ahahahaha. Yes, three years. For a nine-chaptered story. Procrastination at its finest. Feel free to read it, I guarantee you cringiness in this typical love story which was written by me in my Form 3 mindset, in which I had to continue to the last chapter for that consistency. Just kidding, the storyline may not be that typical. Basically it's about this princess who was so sick of other princesses just getting themselves into danger so that they can be saved by princes. She ends up trying to save her own prince instead. Oooh 15-year old me was such a feminist who knew lol. ANYWAY PLEASE READ THE WHOLE THING COULD BE FINISHED IN LESS THAN TWO HOURS THANK YOU. http://www.asianfanfics.com/story/view/531449/saving-my-prince-fluff-jessica-romance-snsd-exo-sehun-kris
Entertainment wise, IM DONE WATCHING SCARLET HEART RYEO THAT ENDING WAS THE WORST ASGDGHFJDJDJKL I ALMOST THREW THE LAPTOP OUT OF THE 18TH FLOOR WINDOW OF MY RESIDENCE. Hm, besides that, watched Doctor Strange with Amira right after our final paper and IT WAS AMAZING. WATCH IT. So, so worth the money and time. The quality of the effects are out of this world. Bak kata Amira, "This was the first movie that got my attention fully after just 5 minutes into it." What else. Read Sophie Kinsella's Finding Audrey which was really good. Watched Bride Wars which was hilarious. Finally watched Cirque du Freak: The Vampire's Assistant after years of finishing the 12 books it was based on (the books were better soz). Watched Fantastic Beasts and Where To Find Them after waiting long 12 YEARS OF IT!! IN AZKABAN!!. And am currently on the 2nd episode of both Weightlifting Fairy Kim Bok Joo and The Legend of The Blue Sea, though I'm more looking forward to the next episode of the former.
Focusing on K-Pop here mehehehe, I would like to thank Infinite for also motivating me in the middle of half-dying from studying. Been loving their song The Eye and I watched their Infinite Showtime + This (Diss) Is Infinite episodes after finals. Their skits on Saturday Night Live (SNL) Korea were hilarious too. Thanks to them I ended up watching a lot of other SNL skits. Loved AOMG's ones. Also bless Blackpink for releasing two amazing new songs. Also throughly enjoyed all the performances during Asia Artist Awards and Melon Music Awards. I like to watch other groups' reactions to other groups' performances hurhur. However, IT IS REALLY A TOUGH TIME TO BE A FAN OF BOTH IOI AND BLACKPINK NOW WITH THE FANWARS. WHY. Anyhow, binge watched all of the cuts Sohye was in in the show Star Show 360. It's so funny to see her being all flustered and teased by huge groups like EXO and BTS ahahaha. Ok ok end of fangirling here.
This was really a mess of a post without pictures where pictures are most needed, and an abundance of grammatical errors but whatever. Enjoy this mess. kkkkktqforreadingpsistartedworkingtodayandtomorrowillbeworkingfor11hoursiwanttodieiregretsigningupinthefirstplaceihatelifeughhhhhhhhhhhhh
ENJOY INFINITE'S THE EYE / TYPHOON
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