Hi it's been really really long since anything new was posted here. Sorry. I remembered in the past years I was really frustrated at some of my seniors when they didn't post anything for months, not understanding, like how can you hold back from posting anything new every day how can you not prioritize blogging?? but here I am now doing the same thing pfft.
I'm currently listening to the live streaming of Big Bang's Made Concert Day 2.. calmly.. I just got back from my last ever SAEYLS two days ago and had 7 hours of tuition yesterday lul. Tiring. It's only April but Form 5 has been so, so, so, tiring. Looking at my friends though, I don't think I deserve to call what I am as tired as they have way more things to handle than me and and and I feel sad for them
I make it a rule to not post any miserable stuff or happenings here to not make people who read it feel miserable too but ok let's excuse this post. Main reason of not updating aHAHAHAh but I'm thankful that whatever that happened to me last year happened and prepared me mentally for this. I get scared thinking how 2014 me will deal with 2015 i'd probably cut myself and commit suicide or whatever idk. Things are more hectic and less enjoyable yes, but at least my reaction to them are.. ok.. uHHH this is awkward ya ya I don't have problems to begin with apa nak complain your problems are probably bigger than mine that's probably what you're thinking and maybe you're right but sadly my brain and the chemicals in my body are overdramatic pls understand.
SPM year heh heh. Someone please knock me on my head to make sure that fact gets in thanks. Can't wait but at the same time dreading for when I'm finally going to be done with school ach my heart aches at the thought of this. tBh I planned to have this year as my focus-on-studying-only year but then BOOM I became President of Puteri Islam, Vice President of Eco Rangers and Secretary for Green House lIKE WHT WHAT I DONT DESERVE THIS WHY EVEN IM NOT GOING TO DO A GOOD JOB/?? March holidays was more like a hell-iday as I had to be forced (lol) to go to average 7 hours of tuition and 4 hours in school every day ya sangat mengerikan pls dont force your children to do that in the future o k o k it's pure torture and the breakdowns sangat teruk ya plus after those 'holidays' I went for a three-days Eco competition in Kedah (got gold for it alhamdulillah) and RIGHT THE DAY AFTER got prefect camp in Melaka for three days imagine the exhaustion and the packing and unpacking and the catching up with studies and homework process but I MADE IT ALIVE YAY
All these paragraphs are very random uh so this year I didn't get to read any storybooks sadly TT_TT but I finished watching Korea's Next Top Model Cycle 3, Korea's Next Top Model Cycle 5, Show Me The Money Season 3 and Unpretty Rapstar yay.
I have these thoughts of being invisible a lot sangat weird and the thought comforts me what even I even thought of deleting all my social networks and being un-contactable after SPM's over I don't know it just sounds nice.. to me.. Some more weird thoughts, the thought of success scares me it always comes with a heavy price like if the road to success is so, so unhappy and hard, and even after that you need to maintain it and go higher, why do people chase after it? hurhurhur nak simple life je sebenarnya I don't even want to study in a foreign country or anything
The concert is still not over hahaha that's it thank you for reading please pray for the war to stop please pray for people to be happier please pray for everyone to do good things please pray for the hungry and homeless people MAKE SURE YOU DO
Bye thank you
I'm currently listening to the live streaming of Big Bang's Made Concert Day 2.. calmly.. I just got back from my last ever SAEYLS two days ago and had 7 hours of tuition yesterday lul. Tiring. It's only April but Form 5 has been so, so, so, tiring. Looking at my friends though, I don't think I deserve to call what I am as tired as they have way more things to handle than me and and and I feel sad for them
I make it a rule to not post any miserable stuff or happenings here to not make people who read it feel miserable too but ok let's excuse this post. Main reason of not updating aHAHAHAh but I'm thankful that whatever that happened to me last year happened and prepared me mentally for this. I get scared thinking how 2014 me will deal with 2015 i'd probably cut myself and commit suicide or whatever idk. Things are more hectic and less enjoyable yes, but at least my reaction to them are.. ok.. uHHH this is awkward ya ya I don't have problems to begin with apa nak complain your problems are probably bigger than mine that's probably what you're thinking and maybe you're right but sadly my brain and the chemicals in my body are overdramatic pls understand.
SPM year heh heh. Someone please knock me on my head to make sure that fact gets in thanks. Can't wait but at the same time dreading for when I'm finally going to be done with school ach my heart aches at the thought of this. tBh I planned to have this year as my focus-on-studying-only year but then BOOM I became President of Puteri Islam, Vice President of Eco Rangers and Secretary for Green House lIKE WHT WHAT I DONT DESERVE THIS WHY EVEN IM NOT GOING TO DO A GOOD JOB/?? March holidays was more like a hell-iday as I had to be forced (lol) to go to average 7 hours of tuition and 4 hours in school every day ya sangat mengerikan pls dont force your children to do that in the future o k o k it's pure torture and the breakdowns sangat teruk ya plus after those 'holidays' I went for a three-days Eco competition in Kedah (got gold for it alhamdulillah) and RIGHT THE DAY AFTER got prefect camp in Melaka for three days imagine the exhaustion and the packing and unpacking and the catching up with studies and homework process but I MADE IT ALIVE YAY
All these paragraphs are very random uh so this year I didn't get to read any storybooks sadly TT_TT but I finished watching Korea's Next Top Model Cycle 3, Korea's Next Top Model Cycle 5, Show Me The Money Season 3 and Unpretty Rapstar yay.
I have these thoughts of being invisible a lot sangat weird and the thought comforts me what even I even thought of deleting all my social networks and being un-contactable after SPM's over I don't know it just sounds nice.. to me.. Some more weird thoughts, the thought of success scares me it always comes with a heavy price like if the road to success is so, so unhappy and hard, and even after that you need to maintain it and go higher, why do people chase after it? hurhurhur nak simple life je sebenarnya I don't even want to study in a foreign country or anything
The concert is still not over hahaha that's it thank you for reading please pray for the war to stop please pray for people to be happier please pray for everyone to do good things please pray for the hungry and homeless people MAKE SURE YOU DO
Bye thank you
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