officially missing you

Hahahahha I'm supposed to be studying but here I am re-reading my old blog posts from two years ago and last year's ones. Noticed how much confident, ,fun, cheerful and brave I was.. I was so bold in expressing my honest thoughts, opinions and feelings without caring what others think.. Too many things happened - too many people's words and actions towards me have changed my way of thinking and turned me into this weirdo I am now (which isn't that bad though heyhey ;D) since last year. I can't even finish my sentences because midway my mind just goes stop haha they're already not listening to you / they're going to hate what you say later on better not / can you at least say something that others can understand/ ahaha- But so many good things happened on the bright side too :D I'm not as mean as before whee. Inilah kehidupan. Wow deep ke tu. I mean, I found a lot of things to be sad for, but at the same time, I found a lot of things to be happy for too hurhurhur that I always go back from school with sore and tired facial muscles from smiling and laughing too much (all genuine ones pls not the type of person who does fake smiles but won't judge you if you do *puts heart emojis here* ).

Well, things happen for a reason and I believe Allah knows what is best for me :D

Two more days to finals ermahgerd I'm going to be a form 5 in a few months ermahgerd. Barely started studying too T_T .

I don't know why I even wrote this but hehe biarlerr.