Let's be happy

p.s highly stressed out and needed something to destress so dont tell me i should be studying now or judge me ok

Assalamualaikum and hello hello I better write this fast before this inspiring feeling wears off. I apologize for not updating for so long, and even if I did, it was all weird deep stuff. Even I'm getting sick of them ambiguous posts lol. I do get urges to update from time to time, but then those were fleeting moments and I end up being 'oh nantilah'.

And yes, I hope this will be a very long post which will cover up things since my absence. I thought of posting several posts but then mehh I don't think I have enough commitment for that. (Btw I did notice my post before about Sports Day has missing pictures and broken links no I won't replace them pls use your imagination soz too lazy). SO. Uh, I'll try dividing this post into segments?

Recent obsessions (mostly K-Pop related as expected):

• Red Velvet. 
  
  As in the Korean girlgroup, not the cake. Sorry red velvet cake no hard feelings. Well before this I have noticed them, and even drew Irene and Seulgi soon after their debut last year because of their unique concept (and Valvet). It was also impossible to ignore them when you hear people singing their song Ice Cream Cake for seven days in a row during SAEYLS. BUT THEN. They released a new song, entitled Dumb Dumb AND I WAS BLOWN AWAY BY IT LIKE WOW THE DANCE THE MUSIC THE VIDEO. WATCHWATCH.

Basically like every other phases I had, I naturally stalked them and watched their live performances, shows and hey there's an interesting compilation of videos of them entitled All About RV : Red Velvet Fanboys with 3 parts now which was quite similar to the All About 2NE1 videos (which currently has more than 20 parts). Wah I didn't know they had so many fans among the idols. Seulgi I ship you with Monsta X's Jooheon ok pls have more interactions. I also drew a picture of them from their teaser picture of them wearing masks (how befitting with the haze here and all) and posted it on Instagram but I deactivated lol and too lazy to find the picture on my phone.

• Zion. T. (Pronounced as Zah-Yon-Tee not Zee-Yon-Tee).
  
  Like most of my fellow schoolmates, I took an interest of this R&B singer after his appearance for the whole new season of Infinite Challenge. To be specific, it was after his performance of Taeyang's I Need A Girl with Taeyang. 

DEAD

HIS PERFORMANCE DURING THE MUSIC FESTIVAL WITH HAHA WAS ALSO AMAZING ENTITLED $PONSOR. And so the cycle of stalking continues. (from this point onwards the mood might turn somber sorry there was in interruption which ruined the momentum and ruined my happy thoughts. anyway.) Listening to his songs has lead me to listening to songs from other amazing artists like Crush and Primary. Try listening to:

Zion.T - Eat

You want a break / It’s so noisy /It’s all so annoying, right? / Then take this song out like eat it like chocolate / Even if you’re tired, make sure you eat breakfast and lunch. great comfort song

• Style Log

A show aired in 2013 I probably wouldn't finish as usual, ha. To be honest, this show is what inspired me to post an update today. Currently at the 7th episode. Basically it covers pop culture, contemporary art, fashion, up-and-coming icons etc. And wow, the show predicted correctly about some personalities being famous way years before they did in the mainstream universe like Sky Ferreira, Rita Ora and Iggy Azalea. Truthfully, I got interested in the show because of the MCs lul models/actors Lee Soohyuk (a close friend of GD, TOP and CL who also appeared in 2NE1's and EXID's MVs) and Hong Jonghyun (also appeared in 2NE1's MV as well as being Girls' Day Yura's husband in WGM). Before watching the show, I thought of them as serious, chic, fashionable and cultured and well. tHEY'RE IDIOTS HAHAHA they're always bickering around like an old-married couple and joking around and being clueless 80% of the time and yeah it's actually a fun show to watch! Of course, they do know their stuff and fashion terms on a way higher level but still it was fun to watch them do things like designing their own snapbacks, learning how to skate, do graffiti etc. Might I also add that both of them acted in a hilarious vampire sitcom called Vampire Idol? I haven't watched it yet but I already rolled around and laughed in tears reading the synopsis here: http://www.dramabeans.com/2011/12/vampire-idol-episodes-1-3/ . Hurhurhur I actually started watching this too because of Lee Soohyuk's amazing performance in the drama Scholar Who Walks The Night as the villain vampire, Gwi.

What has happened:

this will be kinda short..... not in the correct mood... before this i planned to put in a lot of related pics here.... sorry.....

• Trials. My last exam before SPM. My last time taking the PJK and Sivik paper hehehe. As usual, I didn't do well. Me doing well in exams has pretty much dissipated since 2012. The results were bad, but I improved since Mid-Years, but still, not good enough. What's that four-lettered word again? Oh yeah, hope. That one got lost. Though I try to fight back, well, deep inside my mind and soul I've already given up. Sigh. In a few years don't hesitate to throw in some coins to me when you see me sleeping under some random bridge.

• It's over! Well, not quite. I'm talking about my responsibilities in all these clubs and societies. I am ashamed of myself, knowing I haven't done quite a good job in any of it. Most days I feel like a fraud, like someday someone will catch me of pretending to be someone I'm not, holding positions I don't deserve. zzz most of the time I just see my friends and juniors and teachers and wonder if they all agree that I'm a highly irresponsible and untrustworthy person and thinking it was a mistake to have me there. This should probably not be posted here because I know when people read this they'll be like 'omg not again ugh so dramatic so annoying stop wanting sympathy ugh attention-seeking and yeah, you really deserved those thoughts'. zzz if those thoughts do cross your mind and you're somehow like a friend to me please pray that you'll avoid interacting with me and having those thoughts while having to pretend you're happy... and try to avoid reading this blog.. 

• Niexter. So.. I write for both youth pullouts from The Star and New Straits Times newspaper now? Niexter's under NST, and yeah recently I went for a writers' meetup and it was fun. My.. works (?) were posted for Niexter three times already this year although two of them were drawings hahahaha here , here and here .  

• Acheh. I can't believe I haven't posted about my trip to Acheh before IT'S BEEN MORE THAN 4 MONTHS DURRAH WHAT HAVE YOU BEEN DOING. So my school's Puteri Islam society organized a trip to Acheh yadda yadda tsunami orphanage donations mosque etc it was very informative, fun and sangat menginsafkan. I posted loads of pictures on Facebook, too tired right now to put them up here. 

well so yeah that's it for now. sorry this post is highly disorganized and is a mess. there are still lots of things i want to cover but that will have to wait for another time i guess (if that time ever comes). i'm currently having a one-week holiday which is supposed to be filled with intensive studying and crammed with revision but i'm just rotting away. please pray for me. please. thank you for reading and bye.

Mino ft. Taeyang - Fear (with english subtitles)