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^ That, my friends, is me slamming the keyboard in frustration (though it magically makes it seem like i'm laughing oH WAIT THE KEYBOARD IS LAUGHING AT ME IS THIS POSSIBLE??) No. Motivation. To. Blog. 

Ok ok let's start this cheerfully. Assalamualaikum and a very good morning/afternoon/evening/night I bid to all of you wherever you are whenever you're reading this!! (no you have not accidentally read my english oral test introduction). Today's the second day of Chinese New Year holidays for me yay and it's also the last day of January and it's.. FRIDAY!!

Can you pls stop being so lame thx. So.. uh.. things happened these past few weeks. What things? Er.. things? *starts to delve in mind in panic* I can't remember but then jeng jeng jeng I have my Instagram yayerz :D :D :D

Went to Abang Lan's kenduri kahwin (or to make it sound classier; wedding reception coughcough). Mutilated these pancakes I ate in La Bodega-

SPOT BAEKHYUN AND CHANYEOL

I FINISHED READING HOUSE OF HADES!! NICOPERCYANNABETHTARTARUSBOBLEOCALYPSOUGHHH.  And uh celebrated le eldest brother's 23rd birthday. Happy belated birthday Amzar! Also I gave this late PMR present to myself from myself am I not sweet.

This is the part where I get too lazy to give out more details soz. School is just mehh. Entered a hafazan competition two days ago and kena hafal Surah Al-Mulk or Yasin. I did badly. 

Rejected the offer to enter the boarding school yea yea I can hear people going "oh my god she's staying like ew we have to look at her face for another 2 years blegh" (or is it just my mind hating myself idk) yea sorry not sorry teehee. 

Went to Aynn's niece (?) punya majlis akikah and watched Carrie. She lent me the book too and man, it can give you nightmares for a week. 

Tbh I am procrastinating something really important now that will affect my future life (not kidding). ANYWAY. Bless holidays, I got to catch up with EXO Showtime ep 9 and WGM PocaGuri ep 19 and 20. Still haven't watch My Love From The Stars ep 9 onwards though. 

Sad story time. Do you guys know what the phrase kena bahan means. Gonna use Manglish now. So uh last year, around end-of-year camtu during Form 3 punya open day at school, these form 4s (at that time. Jaga their class.) forced me to sit with them and well they started asking me mean things- Not going to tell who they are but they're the really, really popular types who has a lot of followers on Twitter and Instagram with a lot of juniors looking up to them, getting comments like "omg stop being so pretty" "lawa" "perfect" "i want your legs!" in every picture they post. Those with deep English posts and quotes on Twitter - about fashion and stuff. Well, in school they use.. rempit-like Malay.. As they started to make fun of me, I looked around and can see some friends looking at me in - jealousy? I was looking at her in disbelief. Felt like a mouse trapped between cats sobs. They made fun of my voice, insulted the prefects, gave these really loud laughs which made everyone turn to look at them, called me skema, compared my height to their boyfriends and stuff. One of them even had her camera to record it idk. "Tak penat ke jadi pengawas cam orang bodoh je?" cough one of their quotes. Only got to escape half an hour because they didn't let me go back to class. Two days ago I waited outside the surau for the hafazan comp with my friends and well they were there, now form 5s and one of them pointed at me and said to her friends, "Wei tu budak yang kena bahan dulu tu kan, apa nama dia?" loudly and one of them called me and well I shook my head (ya sangat lame) and they laughed. Some might bagi nasihat "oh they're just jealous of you" because they're not? They're pretty, popular, rich and so many people I know admire them. 

Sigh.

If only they knew.

So of course, as long as you're pretty, get a lot of compliments, popular, yeah sure you can do anything you want because people will still love you.

And people wonder why I have low self esteem hahahaha.

If you want to read you can just highlight it mehh. 

"Blank souls coming your way. What you gonna do when they call your name?"