Fifteen

Assalamualaikum and hi. This is my first post here as a fifteen-year old. Feels the same. Yes, I turned fifteen on the 15th April. Although according to the Islamic calendar, I would turn sixteen on the 17th Zulhijjah/22nd October this year. 

I remember when I was in form 1, I was so excited when my friends turned thirteen and could not wait for my turn because I can finally sing Taylor Swift's Fifteen in two more years! Yes, I was a huge fan of her. Now? I don't know. Just gonna share some presents I got. SOME. 

Thank you Abang Khalil and Kak Farah for the handmade sketch book and..the wishes inside..

Thank you Mama and Baba for these cakes that I didn't even get to taste because everyone ate them (but you bought another one yay :D)

Gracias por la tarjeta, Auntie Caro!

Terima kasih atas painting kit ini, Amzar :P

Thank you for all the books Along Ha! Although I'm only reading these after PMR /sobs. 

And thank you for all the wishes on Facebook, Twitter, WhatsApp, blog (Sharon) and school. Thanks for still singing the birthday song for me during recess even when I was not there and dutying far away. Oh wait, surprise. 

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. 

Also, happy belated birthday to Melissa who I share the same birthday with!

Enough with the birthday stories. Last Saturday was the 11:11 Make A Wish run for charity. Had the most uncomfortable time of my life. Was glad when my dad picked me up to tuition on 10:30 with Sharon and Aida even though I did not get to see any performances at all. Let's just say the crowds of teenagers and my braces were killing me.

Having a hard time right now because. Took out four of my teeth recently. While waiting for something on that day, I was trying to cover my face by pretending to read a magazine until I looked down on my school tudung and saw it was drenched with blood from my mouth. Gross. And it hurts a lot until now. I really really want to apologize if I don't smile back at anyone or answer whatever anyone says to me with one-word replies or pushed anyone who's talking to me away while I'm eating. Especially when I'm eating. You see, the food gets stuck to my braces and inside the hole where my tooth used to be (ouch) and um. I am just scared I'll get embarrassed when I talk with something in my teeth. Ok. 

Also. Here's to everyone, especially for a very kind person I know (I know you don't even read this but..). I'm sorry. For talking too much about myself only. For being annoying. For not thinking whatever I say before saying it might hurt other's feelings however honest it is. For being selfish. For hurting your ears when I sing with that funny voice in front of you. Yep. Thank you for telling me before it's too late and I go overboard :D

Am I getting more annoying? Am I too loud or noisy? Sigh. No. Don't have self pity. It's irritating. Do something about it. Maybe I will. 

Wait wait how did this post turned into an emotional one ._. Let's brighten up with this song! But- but, I can't think of any right now /weeps. I know I said I'm taking a break from K-Pop but I can't stop myself from listening to this song. Somebody slap me.

Oh, if you're wondering whether I saw GD's new MV, I did. All thoughts about me thinking I understood his mind turned into dust haha. 

That's all for now. Bye.